Green-eyed monster

Thoughts of leaving the school and joining the working industry has occasionally crossed my mind whenever I see how great a life my other friends are leading. They have the money and spare time to do the things they want, and a pathetic me has to struggle with school work all day long. It must be the exhaustion and frustration after coping with school-related affairs all day long. But I do feel a little green when I look at their place. Yea, probably by now you would have concluded my thoughts as being short-sighted and naive. It is not just fun and getting salary every month working young adult go through; they do have their own share of troubles. Well then, this is the contradicting side of human: they are never satisfied with their present condition for long. Think of how much you want a short hair when your hair is long and vice versa. But guess that what makes living each day not so boring. I have decided to brave through this.

I figure out that if I want to speak well, I need to stop minding how other people may view me. Yea, make a joke out of my mistake or pick at me for my bad grammar, but I am just going to do what I have to do. It is that simple. I’ve deployed that strategy and it is really working well for me. So far school is okay and 3 tests are lining up. Till then.

Hotspot

Luckily the hotspot @ Genting Starbucks works on my laptop, else I would have to put up with the world’s most grumpy face ever for the rest of the night! Haha!!! I am talking about him because all he wanted from IBM laptop was to download the latest LOST Season 4 episode 2.

Well, the weather here is not as cold as I’ve predicted beforehand, but the chilling air is starting to blow towards our hotel. Hmm, there isn’t much going on here actually. There are still some places we haven’t been yet and perhaps we will comb through the whole area here. Wow, outside is beginning to get real foggy when I looked up just now. I see more males than females loitering around the area. Haiz, I am going back to Singapore in less than 2 days which is a bad news. At least I wouldn’t feel the pressure to study that much as when I am in Singapore. Soon it would be week 5 and the workload which I’ve left piling up will start to collapse! I need more time indeed!!!!!!

Diligent

Now I can see how my diploma in Information Technology helps in preparing me for my future career. Well, it is not like I’ve already figured out who I want to be at this point in time but I’ve a strong sense of knowing how to find out. To be frank, I thought enrolling into a IT course, a course which I chose last in my polytechnic application form, was a huge mistake and blamed myself for not working hard. I was inspired to be a web designer then and it happened during when designing blog skin was a ‘in’ thing to do. But now I came to realize it isn’t really what I want. Yea, I may have a good sense of all things beautiful but that is totally different from creating them; meaning I have no passion for designing. And so, I tried applying for a design course and was rejected because of my result. IT was the only last option that I had in hand.

Polytechnic life was quite easy with him feeding me all the time-from printing my timetable to going through past year papers-plus a little bit of luck made me to top 10% of the whole cohort. Finally, I was accepted into NUS FASS and this was when I’ve got to start finding out who I really was. During the first semester, I devoted all my time fooling around and did extremely badly as a result. When I first read my GAP score online, it hit me really hard. It was serving me like a wake up call and I remembered stubbornly pressing the refresh button several times to make sure it was real. At that that, I came to realize how dependent I was on others for the success of my life. I depended on him extensively throughout my poly life, and still not realizing my mistake. Lady luck has been really kind to bless me with the best boyfriend a woman can have as well as a supportive mother. So why am I not appreciative and stop deceiving myself that luck will always be on my side and that I can always get pass life challenges?

I may be running out of luck right now but I came to realize who I can or should depend on for my success. It has got to be myself and no one else. Everybody’s success got to be the fruit of everybody’s hard work. Success will not come to those who do not work hard for it. Diligence and hard work is the key.

The last blessing Lady Luck may have left me with, in the way I perceive it, is perhaps ‘the mistake’ I made to study IT.Having a IT background helps a lot for a Communication and New Media major and this time round I promise to preserve and work hard for my future.

Friendship

What comes to your mind when thinking about friendship and how would you define this term? Well, the fact that I can count whom I consider as true friend with less than 5 fingers would show how deprive I am from the taste of friendship. Sure, I am skeptical towards friendship to the point I even doubt about its existence. You see the thing about being a skeptic is convenience. If you are a skeptic, you do not need to give a damn about what other people say simply because you are a skeptic.

Well, not too long ago I discussed with him about the factors which bond people of different backgrounds together and work on establishing a long-term relationship and it didn’t take me long to come out with an answer. Between couple, it is LOVE that bonds people and this is such a strong bonding entity which withstands all obstacles given the right kind. Of course I am referring to real true love, like the one I share with Chris. I don’t know about other couples but I heard they like to complicate things in relationship which is no good. Okay, and blood for family relationship and I do not see the purpose in elaborating because everybody knows what I mean by that. So what about friendship?

From my perspective, I think it is the fear of loneliness and lack of companionship which compels people to mingle around and start giving a damn about people sitting about them. Abrupt shifts from one social group to another seems to be part of everyday’s live and developing the fear of loneliness is the very reason why you step out of your comfortable zone and start makin friends.

Wish list

Doesn’t festive seasons remind you of what has been on your wish list for as long as you can remember? Christmas is coming and I would like to make a wish list now And it really doesn’t hurt to come out with one where your financial ability makes 90% of the item on the list almost unattainable. It is just for the fun of it! Habitually, I like to go around asking people how they would spend a thousand dollar if it falls from the sky! That is just so me to dream about striking rich and not knowing how to spend it.

Item 1: Canon IXUS 860IS

I desperately in need of a good camera!!! Okay, I give up being a sucker for sleek designs and shall select camera based on its specification, for good! Enough of lousy cameras which snap grainy pictures and my current Casio camera is just that! Although this Canon’s digital camera loses out in terms of its appeal but its functions make up for it. Many ppl swear by Canon’s camera quality. Moreover, it is pointless to select camera for its design when better ones are always springing up fast. For that, I need $600.

Item 2: ASUS EEE PC

UMPC is going to be the next big thing and this Asus EEE PC, which weighs less than a kilogram, is currently the leading model in the market. I’ve seen it in Sim Lim Square but too bad it can’t be swiveled to turn into a tablet PC. Apart from that, 2-3 hours of battery life doesn’t quite appeal to me so I shall wait for better models to be out. But life can be instantly great if I had one. I could read news online lying on the bed and need not worry abt damaging the hard disk as this comes in solid state(?) memory. Tagged at $670.