The final

How I wish I was there to watch this live!!!

Man, I love this song to death and I don’t get sick listening to this non-stop for a relatively long duration. And the most ironic part is I am not even a Dir En Grey fan to begin with though Kyo’s vocal attracts me a lot! It is such a pity that most of their songs are too loud for my liking but there are some other songs such as Cage and Ain’t afraid to die that I like a lot. Well if I have pick a song to represent my life, this will be it! To me, this song is exceptionally emotional be it in the melody or lyric. A song that draws out the conflicting feeling of wanting to love somebody wholeheartedly yet fearing of losing them eventually.

The Final English translation

The intention is clear, I stare… with this left hand,
unable to be worded
Every time I bleed, there lies the reason to live…
And I discover words being so vivid and bright
Even loved ones scatter like petals from flowers in my hand
So even if I engraved the meaning that I lived in my hand,
it will only be known as flowers of vanity
The final

One by one it multiplies… why be a sad bait?
Deep within the hell of my heart… I can’t go back
A self-torture loser, not being able to see tomorrow
Suicide is the proof of life

Even loved ones scatter like petals from flowers in my hand
So even if I engraved the meaning that I lived in my hand,
the petals will only scatter as flowers of vanity
So I can’t live
What’s lost can’t be born again
A song that’s not even seeking the proof of living
Let’s put an end… The Final
Let’s bloom flowers of attempted suicide.

Happy girl!!!

I will be getting a Nintendo DS Lite on this coming friday and for the very first time, I teared out of joy for getting a A- for my Japanese society essay!!!

Omg!!! Life is looking good now!!!!!

What

How long more do I have to keep questioning myself over this?

Green-eyed monster by Corrinne May

So you say life is unfair
She’s got everything you wanted
And you’re not even close
To getting where you wish you could be
You want to get the commendation
Love and adulation
But you’re stuck here on your knees

Are you happy
Are you happy, green eyed monster
Are you happy, with your place
What’s the use of being haunted
Your story, for glory
Is right there in your face

So be glad
You’re an architect creation
You’re one of a kind
Just stay on track
Because every cross can be a blessing
All the gifts that you’ve been given
Close your eyes and listen
To who you’re meant to be

Are you happy
Are you happy, green eyed monster
Are you happy, with your place
What’s the use of being haunted
Your story, for glory
Is right there in your face

Dont feed the monster
Wasting time comparing
Lose yourself despairing
I hear it
Don’t ya
Hungry for our fight

Are you happy
Are you happy, green eyed monster
Are you happy, with your place
What’s the use of being haunted
Your story, for glory
Is right there in your face

Right there in your face
Right there in your face…

Stress

FUCK!!! My stress level is over my head already!!! There are way too many students here and impede me from finding a decent place to study. Worse still, the only available seats with power point is at the laptop charging area but the freaky chair is so stupidly placed in a slanting position that my butt keeps sliding forward :X That is how crowded this library is. You have no clue how those power point are being overloaded with plugs and my poor laptop has got no current to fuel it! May all the plugs burn and turn into ash, the malevolent side of me says.

Well, I feel really bad for something that I did… But no time for any form of reflections. So much for digressing… Back to my study mode.

P.S, I may stay overnight to study here. The pile of revision notes freak me OUT!

HP Mini UMPC

It looks too good to be true! 120 GB HDD??!!! The storage is even bigger than IBM X60 O.O Amazing, isn’t it? How affordable memory has become these days. Based on the review written by Digital Life, this baby is retailing at the price of $999. Man, I am so tempted to buy this but I don’t think my wallet will agree. Moreover with the pace UMPC makers are competing at, it might be wise to wait patiently for better deals. Hehe, I am pretty sure ASUS EEE PC users are sulking already.

Nintendo DS Lite

Nintendo DS Lite in  pink. Seriously I cannot decide on the color. Pink or white???

I want to play Cooking Mama 2 on DS Lite so badly! It seems so fun!

Dictionary

I can’t do without a dictionary and wordweb is serving me so well that I have to rely on it and not any other free dictionary providers. Ever since I lost my wordweb together with my laptop, I was searching high and low for it because I couldn’t remember the software name. Gotta keep track it here.

A Ctrl-Right click is all that you have to do

Wordweb

Life is thinking about you

Finally the project and essay rush is over!!! Phew!!! But not a moment of relaxation until the official end of my final examination. Things took a 360 degree during a short period of time while I was away from the blogsphere and I don’t even know what to start off with. Or maybe I can attempt to do a list here.

1. Lost my IBM X61 laptop: Good bye sleek! Lost it in one of the bus stops near a coffee shop. Well, I am quite skeptical towards karma but whoever gets it is just damn lucky. Damn! I still have to pay the outstanding $2000 laptop loan anyway.
2. Almost quit university: Especially with the debts are getting heavier and heavier. My results ain’t fantastic anyway so I figured out it might be better to just find a job. But luckily I reconsidered and decided not to waste this rare opportunity away. Press on shall be it!
3. Hamasaki Ayumi Musician FB gone:May be the due to the publicity at ayunite forum and some busybody just had to report it. Embrace it man embrace it… 4000+ over fans…
4. My health sure did deteriorate: So many sleepless night because of those project rush.
5. Pretty much screwed up: Shall not elaborate here.

Although things went crushing down during this short frame of period, there were a lot of people who showed me sympathy and gave me word of comfort to go on. I am entirely grateful for those who has helped during that period. It means a lot to me. Not forgetting dear who came down to my school and madly chased after a cab knowing that my body could no longer hold any further. I deeply appreciate.

Information Age

I am always in need whenever my family members, relatives or sometimes neighbors do not undetstand any official document, especially the government’s letters. Well, that really reminds me of him who is a official IT GEEK and always ‘bugged’ by friends whose IT gadgets die on them. Sorry for using such an unfriendly word BUGGED but sometimes I do feel that it fits to describe the situation. Look, we are busy people and it is no longer a matter of being selfish anymore; We simply do not have the time to help :S