Diligent

Now I can see how my diploma in Information Technology helps in preparing me for my future career. Well, it is not like I’ve already figured out who I want to be at this point in time but I’ve a strong sense of knowing how to find out. To be frank, I thought enrolling into a IT course, a course which I chose last in my polytechnic application form, was a huge mistake and blamed myself for not working hard. I was inspired to be a web designer then and it happened during when designing blog skin was a ‘in’ thing to do. But now I came to realize it isn’t really what I want. Yea, I may have a good sense of all things beautiful but that is totally different from creating them; meaning I have no passion for designing. And so, I tried applying for a design course and was rejected because of my result. IT was the only last option that I had in hand.

Polytechnic life was quite easy with him feeding me all the time-from printing my timetable to going through past year papers-plus a little bit of luck made me to top 10% of the whole cohort. Finally, I was accepted into NUS FASS and this was when I’ve got to start finding out who I really was. During the first semester, I devoted all my time fooling around and did extremely badly as a result. When I first read my GAP score online, it hit me really hard. It was serving me like a wake up call and I remembered stubbornly pressing the refresh button several times to make sure it was real. At that that, I came to realize how dependent I was on others for the success of my life. I depended on him extensively throughout my poly life, and still not realizing my mistake. Lady luck has been really kind to bless me with the best boyfriend a woman can have as well as a supportive mother. So why am I not appreciative and stop deceiving myself that luck will always be on my side and that I can always get pass life challenges?

I may be running out of luck right now but I came to realize who I can or should depend on for my success. It has got to be myself and no one else. Everybody’s success got to be the fruit of everybody’s hard work. Success will not come to those who do not work hard for it. Diligence and hard work is the key.

The last blessing Lady Luck may have left me with, in the way I perceive it, is perhaps ‘the mistake’ I made to study IT.Having a IT background helps a lot for a Communication and New Media major and this time round I promise to preserve and work hard for my future.

Friendship

What comes to your mind when thinking about friendship and how would you define this term? Well, the fact that I can count whom I consider as true friend with less than 5 fingers would show how deprive I am from the taste of friendship. Sure, I am skeptical towards friendship to the point I even doubt about its existence. You see the thing about being a skeptic is convenience. If you are a skeptic, you do not need to give a damn about what other people say simply because you are a skeptic.

Well, not too long ago I discussed with him about the factors which bond people of different backgrounds together and work on establishing a long-term relationship and it didn’t take me long to come out with an answer. Between couple, it is LOVE that bonds people and this is such a strong bonding entity which withstands all obstacles given the right kind. Of course I am referring to real true love, like the one I share with Chris. I don’t know about other couples but I heard they like to complicate things in relationship which is no good. Okay, and blood for family relationship and I do not see the purpose in elaborating because everybody knows what I mean by that. So what about friendship?

From my perspective, I think it is the fear of loneliness and lack of companionship which compels people to mingle around and start giving a damn about people sitting about them. Abrupt shifts from one social group to another seems to be part of everyday’s live and developing the fear of loneliness is the very reason why you step out of your comfortable zone and start makin friends.

Goodbye holiday

I didn’t realize how rapid my 5 weeks vacation has passed until my boss asked about the commencement of my new school term. Next week, of course, and here is a a quick recap of how I spent my vacation: Work for The Box, spending quality time with dearie and playing computer games(Sims2 and Worms 3D). It is a shame that due to my tight working schedule, I didn’t have the time to meet up with my beloved friends. But on a side note, I don’t have a lot of friends anyway(ironic smile). Oh yea, I have a brand new haircut which I love! I can’t stand the previous.

Money issue now. Don’t ask me how much I earn because I’ve spent more than I earn. My bank is going to dry up any moment and I do acknowledge the serious lack of good financial management. Whenever my bank account figure starts to grow, I can’t help but to feel like spending every single cent at light speed! Horror!!! It is hard curbing my desire to spend. Oh yea, I need a new camera!!!

New school term is looking good and CHALLENGING! This shall be the first semester for me to take 6 modules all at once! My friend may did just good so I have enough reason to believe it is manageable. The only thing I need to learn is to stop being a procrastinator and start being like a REAL student.

Discount, over my dead body

It seems almost impossible to work a day without annoying freaks repeatedly demanding for discount. These people are hardcore man, I tell ya. Most of the time they start off by doing it the soft way, which is often through pacifying me into giving them discount, and it never work. The reason is simple: I can’t give out discount when the promotion is over which is the whole damn point here. Not that I am being such a sad person and enjoy denying customers of their entitlement but because I can’t! When promotion is over, it is over. As simple as that. Today I have a customer who wanted to contact my boss for a  discount. Isn’t that annoying? I’ve already informed her there is no promotion as of now UMPTEEN TIMES and there she is natively thinking about getting it straight from my boss. Winner!

And there is also another group of such customer whom I loathe, a lot. They are people from my neighboring shop who swamp into my boutique in group and capitalizing on our superficial ‘relationship’ for STAFF DISCOUNT!! HELLO, are out of your mind? STAFF DISCOUNT are for staffs and that is part of our welfare. Now you want us to share it with you? Testing the water once for such unreasonable request is still tolerable, but most of the time they will never stop advancing until the end of the whole transaction. What really maddens me is they are salespeople themselves and why wouldn’t they understand my situation?

GET OFF MY BACK YOU ASSHOLES

New Hairstyle

I am so happy to bid my old hairstyle goodbye!!! My previous hairstyle sucked like hell. I just couldn’t find the time out of my crazy schedule to have my hair fixed. It is always the case when I am overworked and my off days would be used to spent with my loved ones. New school term is starting real soon and I can’t wait to get this bothersome issue out of my head. And so he accompanied me to Jean Yip Hub and I am glad to have my hair cut there. Like all girls out there, I was contemplating whether or not to have a short bob hairstyle now that it is in rage but I decided long hair would be better as for now. But soon, I will try short hair in abt a few years time. Look at how GORGEOUS ayu is with her current chio bob hair. It is definitely so much better than Victoria’s and those stupid people can’t stop saying ayu is copying her. I mean look, ayu’s hairstylist is inventing this BOB hairstyle, which almost everybody has right now, in such innovative way and people just can’t stop YAKKING! Stupid people who has to much time!

Anyway, new school term is starting real soon. I dunno how I should feel about it but my next holiday would be 3 months long! WOW!!! That would be my longest vacation then. See, that is how easily I get my mind wandering off to something irrelevant previously.

Food and school

I always love the hearty meal over at Sushi Tei with dear whenever I’ve the extra cash to spend and I am so obsessed with eating Sukiyaki. Argh, that dish makes me go weak in the knees, making me asking for more time and time over again :X I just can’t get enough of that! But when I came back home to check on my bidding result, boy was I disappointed! The module that I bidded for was not successfully allocated to me as I was outbidded by some crazily points loaded fellow! But never mind, I will try getting another module during the next bidding round. Talking about the CORS bidding system that is deployed in NUS, I think it is genius! I heard that the previous batch got to go down to school and queue for their modules. How crazy would that be for anyone to go through. Luckily I was spared from that kind of shit and all I needed to do was to go online and pray things would turn out the way I wanted it. Not quite yet but I hope soon!